An altogether neutral sort of day, by which I mean that there were lows and highs. I had hoped that I could reframe my attitude at work and feel overall better about working. That was the idea, but even though I got good sleep, I still struggled for the motivation to make and eat breakfast. I did get through another meeting without falling to pieces so I guess that’s progress.
I did end up getting motivated near the end of my work day. I need to figure out how to start that sooner I guess. Somehow, I’ll find a way to focus my energies again… and then I’ll probably have to find another way.
I didn’t do much with my afternoon. I let my brain just be down and distracted in between crying jags. But at least I had choir to look forward to.
Choir today was a high point as usual. I love singing, and I have a wonderful group to sing with at the Upper Country Singers. I also get hugs, which is a bonus. Now I just need to unwind and get ready to sleep, always tricky on choir nights for me. I mean, right now, after choir, I feel energized and connected with the world. I want to do things. But I need to do the things that get me ready for bed so I can have a good day tomorrow. Or at least, not a bad day.