A weird night last night was. I started out cold, with my feet refusing to warm up. I left the furnace at 75 instead of lowering it down to 70, but I was still quite cold. I put on Ambrose’s balaclava for warmth and eventually drifted off to sleep. When I woke up to pee, I was too hot. I took the balaclava off and got back to sleep, only to wake again and feel both hot and cold. My body was warm, but I had shivers of cold running down my right leg. I didn’t get very good sleep between 4 and the alarm at 6. Just dozing.
I dreamed of going to a concert (Stone Temple Pilots) with my brother and his wife. The venue was more like a wedding than a concert, with round tables set up in front of a dais. She wanted to sit next to me rather than him, which makes sense since she doesn’t get to see me as much as she does him. I went to find the bathroom, but it was difficult to find, as if bathrooms weren’t a thing there. Eventually, I and another woman were directed down a series of ramps that ended in a ledge with a plastic tree trunk that I had to slide down to get to the bottom where the “Reel Restrooms” were – the bathroom where you watch a movie. I love my weird dreams.
The morning walk didn’t need the headlamp, though I wore it with the red light on in back just for safety’s sake. Bright enough to see, dark enough that I should illuminate myself in case of traffic (there was no traffic). Maybe tomorrow I’ll try a run, but I don’t feel like I have the gumption at this point to gear up to run in the 35 degree weather first thing in the morning. It’s hard enough putting on a sports bra, let alone warm leggings and multiple shirt layers so that I’m warm enough to start and can delayer as I heat up.
Maybe I’ll try a quick run after work tomorrow, before I eat dinner and go to the hot springs. I haven’t run in a long time. Well, it feels like a long time. I was running last summer, a bit. Not as much as the summer before.
I had an espresso before work. I’m glad I did, because I needed the energy to get through teaching the class. And we’ve got an issue with applications at the moment that is quite vexing and needs my full brain power to assess. I did Shoulders & Arms Level 2, week 1, day 2 during my exercise release time, along with the mail walk. Peanut butter and jelly for lunch along with some frozen grapes.
I did a cool shower this morning to try and keep myself from breaking out in red spots again, but I got the spots and the itchiness again after my evening walk. It might be anxiety or it might be my body’s long term reaction to my having used deodorant while I was in South Carolina. I typically don’t wear deodorant at all, but I figured living with four other people on a temporary basis would make it the polite thing to do. I started breaking out from deodorant a few years back so I haven’t been using it for a while. But there’s also the stress of not knowing when I’m going to need to call off work, and waiting for the judge to make a decision about my motion to get off supervision (hopefully a positive decision for me). I think that I’ll be able to be calmer when I don’t have that hanging over my head every day. I hope.
Good family zoom this evening. After my parents signed off my brother and I stayed on together a while longer. He walked to the grocery store, and I did my walk, showing him the beautiful scenery. It was already dark in Chicago, but still quite bright here in Cambridge. The neighbor dog and a buddy came out to join me on my walk, but got sent home by the neighbor who had to drive out to make them leave me. I could have kept talking with my brother until bed time, but I wanted to get this posted and do my staff spinning. So that’s next and then it will be time to get ready for bed. I hope that I sleep better tonight. I’ve got an extra blanket ready to go and I’ll turn down the thermostat because cooler temps are supposed to be good for sleep.
