I didn’t fall asleep very well last night. That’s three nights in a row where I went to bed and felt wide awake. I think it’s a sign that I need to start moving my body more. Get that exercise even though there’s still a bit of a cough hanging on. I did remember some dreams, but nothing with Ambrose. I so want a dream of hugging him.
I knew that I would have some big emotions when I got home from Chicago, because I had to hold back a bit while I was there. I couldn’t just have a good cry whenever the emotions rose. I cried a bit, but only one day of sobbing and that was not actually grief related. But when I got home, instead of having a good cry and letting it all out, I got really sick and had to deal with that instead.
Hard to have a good bawl when your throat is sore. And I had to stay focused on taking care of myself. I did cry a bit over the last week since I’ve been home, but not a lot.
This evening, I indulged in a bit of hysterics. I yelled and cried and screamed and let out the emotions that needed to be released. I might do it again tomorrow. I think I need to move my body more. Challenge my body more. I did my shoulder exercises, but I kind of want to go for a run. Though it’s probably too cold to do that while I’m still recovering from my sickness.
I got a bit of writing done on my Snowslide trip. I’m going to work on it every day until it’s done.
The air stagnation is now forecast to last until next Monday instead of Friday. Boo! And there’s no snow on the ground and that makes me so sad. I want to see snow, not green grass. Oh, I looked at my lilac today, and it looks like something has been munching on the stalks that are sticking out. They’re broken off. I should get a picture of that tomorrow. I blame the deer.
Work was okay today. I was able to be a bit more focused than last week, but not yet 100 percent. I’m getting there. There’s a divisional breakfast on Wednesday that I’d like to go to even though it’s a long drive for a 90 minute meeting. It’s more about showing up at this point.
My egg with breakfast was decently cooked. I’ll probably try a little less time for the next batch. This was 9 minutes once it started to boil. And I might do seeds instead of nuts for next week’s oats. Chia or flax. More fiber, less calories. I’m trying to work on getting more fiber in my diet.
Maybe I’ll do a wake up walk in the morning. It will depend on if I get to sleep well tonight. I’m thinking of taking something different tonight. I think the night cold medicine’s sleep medication is not working as well after several days in a row of use. And I don’t know if I need to take cold medicine tonight. It really does feel like I cried out some of the sickness.
