I woke just before 5, which is what I’d asked my body to do. I got up and wrote about my dreams, and then I worked on my Snowslide Lake write up. I’m getting very close to finishing day 1. The writing at least. I’ll get it written and then worry about getting the pictures on.
I’m finding that a breakfast of an egg and my oats preparation is lasting me until lunch just fine. No need for a mid-morning snack. I need to get some more milk before Sunday. And more eggs. I had an egg for an afternoon snack today.
Today is 500 days in a row that I’ve done Move U exercises for a least 15 minutes. I guess I’m really committed to working on my posture and keeping pain at bay as I age. I intend to keep this habit up. It helps keep me grounded. I sometimes use the exercises as meditation. Feeling my body and its energies. Maybe I need to focus more on that to get my left shoulder in order.
I had a talk with a lawyer today about petitioning for a withheld judgment for my case once I finish my sentence. Not the lawyer that I’d had for the original case. I never want to speak to that lawyer again. This lawyer is someone I knew from CrossFit, and my dad checked her out as well. She’s agreed to work with me, so I’m moving forward with it. Hopefully, it will be an easy matter and will resolve in my favor.
It was all good news, but I still broke down afterwards. Cried. That’s why I want to make that case go away as much as I can. Not just so I can visit Canada with more confidence that I won’t be turned back, but also because thinking about the case takes me back to Ambrose’s death and the psychotic break that I experienced in the immediate aftermath. When I lost myself. Got lost in myself.
I called my dad right after so I could talk it over with him and let my emotions out with someone listening. I might reach out to my counselor. Just for a one off. I’m feeling just really emotional lately, all stirred up. Might help to talk it through with a neutral party.
In the afternoon, another headache came on. I thought it was caffeine related at first as it was central, but then it settled on the left side and I knew it was a migraine. I was going to tough it out and see how it felt in the morning, but during family zoom I went ahead and took my last migraine pill. It took a while to take affect, but it did help eventually. I’m going to need to call about getting more. It’s about time for my annual check up anyway.
I’m still coughing, and my sense of smell seems a bit depressed. I can smell some things, but not all the things I think I should be able to smell. Could just be congestion, but I think it’s wiser not to go to the on campus breakfast tomorrow. I’ll have to wait for my next chance to show up for work. And hope that I’m not sick – or in surgery – for it.
Pretty sure something is munching on my lilac:
