I felt like I didn’t get to sleep very well last night. I had to try a number of different positions. The good part is that I finally settled into my regular position and I didn’t need to control my breathing to prevent coughing. I’m past the point of needing to sleep with my upper body elevated! Getting better!
But I still woke a bit before 6 am. And I spent some time writing before my alarm went off at 6:30. I’ve got the write up of day 1 of the Snowslide trip completed. I just need to add the photos in. That’s tricky, because I have to select them using “extra large icons” which are not big enough for me to see for sure if they’re the photos I want to include. I might just look at them on my phone and then upload the ones that I want by file name.
I was still feeling really stressed this morning. I did some more scream-crying during my morning break from work, and I was finding it difficult to focus on work. So I took one of the ‘as needed’ anxiety pills that I got back in October 2024. This is the 6th one that I’ve taken since then, so I think I’m doing alright overall. It helped me focus on work and not feel so overwhelmed by the feelings that are churning around right now.
I finally got feedback responses on the stories that I submitted for the classes that I took back in September. It’s funny; the first one I got negative feedback on, but the other five got positive feedback, mostly. One had an issue that kept kicking him out of the story, but I think it’s fixable. I’m being advised to get these out to readers, so once I finish my trip write ups, I think that’s up next. I have six short stories I can put up as of right now, and there might be more once I get responses on the Pulphouse submissions.
I know I’m churning my feelings up with dealing with my legal case, even with a new lawyer. And I had been pushing some of my feelings down when I was in Chicago and while sick. But I guess it’s also that you just can’t predict when the grief will rise up.
I’m feeling better enough physically that I’m picking things up. I did some organizing of my work desk. I’ve got a good amount of stuff to do to make my living space visitor ready, but it’s improving. I walked to check my mail today, which was pushing things a bit, but it felt good. And I saw a bunch of deer. Probably the same ones that are munching on my lilac, but they’re still cute.
Maybe tomorrow will be a good day for a morning walk. I have made a reservation for the hot springs tomorrow evening, and the next two Wednesdays. I’m trying to get in the habit of making my reservation requests for the month at the start of the month.
At the end of the workday, I asked a co-worker for help with a Travel Authorization. I’m going to a different conference this year, and it’s been so long since I did one of these on my own instead of with a big group. I don’t know if I would have done that if I hadn’t taken that medication today. Here’s hoping I can bring this calm forward with me into the rest of the week.
