It was 6 degrees this morning when I went for my walk. I woke up around 4 again and couldn’t really fall back asleep, so I was exhausted. But if I stayed in bed, I would have stayed in bed all day. I really wanted to do that. I wanted to get more sleep.
I was glad that I had therapy today. I needed the reminder that I have actually had a challenging week (and it’s only Wednesday!) with what’s going on in the country, getting bitten by a dog, and then getting a surprise visit from a deputy. I’m healing. The bulk of my energy is going to healing, and I only have so much leftover.
Before therapy, I made a decision to limit social media. I had been finding myself doom-scrolling far too much, and it seemed like there was more and more political news popping up in my feeds. I decided I’m only going to log into Facebook and Instagram on Mondays. I’ve made it through today without opening the apps, so that’s good.
I got my lunchtime walk done, and skipped the evening walk because Wednesdays are for hot springs. I need to be ready to go, so there’s not really time after work to go for a walk AND eat dinner. I prioritized dinner.
The water was nice and hot at the springs. Lots of good conversation. Beautiful sunset colors as we arrived, and plenty of stars and planets as it got dark. I also got to see the Starlink satellites, briefly forming a line in the sky.
I’ve still got to do my 15 minutes of Move U exercises. I think I’ll mostly be on the floor for them. The hot springs have melted my bones; I’m not sure I’m up to standing for 15 minutes tonight. I hope I sleep well. I hope I sleep until the alarm.
It’s still so weird for my brain that Ambrose is not here. He’s not here, and he’s not coming back. It doesn’t make sense.
I hope that I can have calm and ease for the next two weeks since my therapist is on a training next week so I won’t have my regular appointment. I can get something scheduled if I need it, but I’m hoping that I wont need it. I need to remember that I am indeed doing all the things that I should be doing. I’m doing the best I can with what I’ve got. That’s all I can ask of myself.