I feel like I didn’t sleep very well last night. It might be anxiety. The 18 month mark that’s coming on Monday is looming large in my mind. I’m trying not to suppress how I feel about it. It’s just how I feel.
Usually I check the outside temp before I go on my walk, and I was momentarily excited when my weather app indicated it was snowing. It was not actually snowing, not at my house anyway, but there was a dense, freezing fog. I could hardly see my neighbors’ lights, and I had to be very careful with my steps to keep from slipping where ice had built up on the road.
I heated up what remained of my onion and salmon salad and ate that along with some ramen noodles for lunch. It was pretty good after I cooked it and added some seasonings. There was no mail on my post-lunch walk, but I did get to see my neighbor and his dog. The dog likes to lean on me and sit on my feet, which I let her do, and she desperately wants to lick my face, which I don’t let her do.
I worked on evaluations for most of the work day. I’m having trouble getting them completed. I don’t feel motivated to do them, but I know I have to get them done. I’ll finish them tomorrow and have my employee meetings on Monday and then it will be done for another year.
After work, I went for my evening walk before eating dinner because I was going to be cooking and doing family zoom. I had put two of the filet mignon my stepmom sent me in the fridge to thaw, but they weren’t quite there so I put them in water and prepared my vegetables. I cut up an onion, a red pepper, and a jalapeno, and then cooked them all in a skillet with a bit of olive oil. I went to the Omaha Steaks website for instructions on how to cook the filet mignon and did my best. The only “skillet” I have that can be made oven safe is my cast iron omelet pan, which is pretty small. But it was just big enough for two filets.
I also made some Knorr cheese and broccoli pasta, and when that was done cooking I put all the veggies in and mixed it all up. I thought I’d be dividing it into three servings, but there was so much I went ahead and divided into four. Which means my next dinner cooking night will be Monday rather than Sunday. I’m thinking I’ll get some more vegetables and cook up another pasta thing and thaw out my black beans. Keep things simple.
I did a follow along video for my exercises today. I’m starting to feel a difference in my shoulder blade and posture. I’m thinking about it more as I sit at my desk for work, and actively trying to avoid falling into the bad positions.
Dinner was delicious. The jalapeno was delightfully hot, and the cheesy pasta didn’t lose too much of its character with the addition of the veg. Sometimes I don’t like mixing things because it changes what I like about the original flavor, but not this time.
I completely abstained from social media today. I’ve been doomscrolling a bit too much. I might skip it tomorrow, too. I have plenty of things to do with my time that don’t involve staring at my phone. Heck, after my evening walk, I sat on the porch and looked at the cloudy sky. It was restful. That’s one of the things I really like about doing my walks in the winter – I get so hot from walking back up the hill that I can sit outside comfortably for a good ten minutes afterwards.
