When I chose to sleep in on Monday morning, I thought that I’d told my alarm to turn back on for 5:30 on Wednesday morning. I’ve got a separate alarm for Tuesday mornings since I’ll always want to be sleeping a bit late after choir practice. But I must not have hit the button correctly, because this morning I woke up at 10 to 6 and thought I had ten minutes until the alarm went off. But no alarm was going to go off, and it took me until 5:58 to realize that and get up.
I guess it’s good that I woke up relatively on time without an alarm, but I feel like I could have slept a lot more. I did a half mile walk, my calisthenics, and a shower. Then I cut up a bunch of pears so I could start them in the dehydrator. I tried to cut them thin, but some of them were thicker.
Work is feeling a bit calmer. I had so many meetings, but some of them were quite productive. During lunch I tried to reinstall the game I’ve been trying to play, but it kept stopping so I did another console reset, and then it finally behaved itself and got installed so I’ll play it a bit before bed tonight.
I took some cold medicine this morning to see if that helped. I thought I might have a very mild kind of cold going on that was just throwing me off. I’m not sure if it helped or not. I didn’t notice when it wore off so I suppose it didn’t help. But I also didn’t eat regular meals today. Just snacks.
The sky was beautiful today. Especially at sunset when I was driving home from the hot springs. I had to force myself to look at the road and not the sky, where the clouds were being painted orange and pink.
Before I left for the hot springs, a wave of loneliness hit me. I miss Ambrose so much. He was my best friend, and there is no one who can take his place. I can make friends and I have made friends, but there’s no one for me who does what he did for me. I’m lonely for him. I hate that that is what’s normal now.
No chatting at the hot springs this evening. I read and soaked and then headed home after about half an hour. Just a quickie so I could get home and see the sunset. I wasn’t able to spot the comet yesterday. Maybe I’ll try again today.
