Today was okay. A lot of tears, but that’s neither bad nor good. More like a fact of my current phase of life. I’m trying to increase my water drinking because I know I’m losing extra moisture via my eyes and nose, but it’s hard to do anything consistently.
Meditation again in the morning; I didn’t cry as much during it as I have been. Not sure if that’s good or bad. Probably just another fact.
I ate pop tarts for breakfast. I snacked at mid-morning. Cooked Spam and reheated mac & cheese for lunch. Peanut butter and jelly sammich for dinner.
Wrapped up the testing cycle at work. Got a few other things done. Still struggling to latch onto work consistently, but I’m feeling more confident about my ability to work 8 hour days when that time comes in November. That I will be able to figure out how to do it. And then I’ll figure out how to return to my management duties. That’s going to be, no, I’m not going to say hard, I’m not going to pre-judge the future like that. It’s going to be interesting. Another adventure.
I can tell all kinds of stories about the future, so I may as well tell positive ones.
The rash on my neck from the chain I used to replace the chain that I broke isn’t as itchy today, but it seems to have spread somehow. There are new itchy spots this morning, complete with little bumps, but not that close to the original rash on the neck.
I scheduled a meeting with my lawyer for later this week. I got some mowing done in the yard. I did my MoveU moves for the day.
I didn’t cook the ground beef that’s thawing (probably thawed by now) in the fridge. So I’ll get that done tomorrow after work, put it as a priority.
Choir practice tonight. I can’t drive, so my friend is giving me a ride. I need to be ready to go a bit earlier than normal, so that helps me get focused on eating dinner in a timely fashion.
My etrike should be delivered today, but it hasn’t been yet. My tracking says by 8pm tonight. I don’t think I need to be here when it arrives, and I hope that’s the case because I won’t be if it doesn’t arrive in the next twenty minutes or so.
It’s only mostly assembled when shipped, so I’ll have to figure that out as well as get the battery charged before I take it for a spin. I’m looking forward to having that bit of mobility back. Even though I do plan to cook that beef tomorrow afternoon, if the etrike is ready for it, I’m hoping to have tacos for dinner from Hugo’s Taco Truck. They’re usually in Cambridge on Mondays and Tuesdays.
Still working on letting go. Not trying to control everything. I finished my reread of The Tao of Pooh, and I’m getting ready to read The Te of Piglet, but I’ve got like half a dozen other books that I’m also reading. Or want to read soon.
I plan to keep mowing until I run out of gas or until I’ve given the whole expanse a good trim down. It’ll all start over again in the spring, but I like making things look neat and trim. Well, neater.
I am so grateful that I have mostly been able to sleep at night, and sleep through the night. This morning I slept to the alarm. I wish that I could remember more dreams, but if all I’m having are nightmares, it’s could be best that I don’t. The last dream I remember having was the first night I spent with Ambrose in the hospital, when I dreamed that he woke up and I needed to tell him everything that had happened, and I was so excited to start contacting everyone to let them know…