I slept in until I couldn’t sleep anymore, which turned out to be a bit before 9 am. I had set an alarm for 9 am because I didn’t want to sleep all day, but I was surprised that I didn’t sleep right up to it. It felt good to get that much sleep and not to be pulled from sleep by an alarm, but I didn’t feel quite right in the morning.
I didn’t do much in the morning. I had some toast and watched TV and studiously avoided all the chores that I’d intended to do last night. When it was near lunch time, I decided to kick myself out of the house and go to the Indian Valley Craft Fair. I’d only heard about it last week, but I decided that I wanted to go, even though I was feeling a bit lost and sad today.
Periodically, I’ll get those feelings of “why?” Why did he have to die? Why am I still here? What am I doing with my life? I think it’s worse when I’m not working out regularly, and I haven’t been able to this last week. Well, I’ve chosen to rest anyway.
The craft fair was good. I chatted with some neighbors who were also there. I bought some jams and two kitchen towels with the crocheted tops that you can use to hook them onto things. One of them will be a gift, and one is mine.
Then I decided to eat lunch, so I ordered a burger. I sat down at an empty table and began to eat and read. Then something happened that really changed my whole day. One of my choir friends has grandchildren in the children’s choir, and I’ve met them a few times now. They all arrived with my friend’s husband and she sat them down at my table.
Suddenly, instead of being alone, I was eating in a group, engaging in conversation, and really enjoying myself. The girls asked a lot of questions, and I was happy to just chat with them about whatever they wanted. They left just as I was finishing my own meal, and I was about to get up when another woman joined me at my table. I had finished eating at this point, but I decided to stay and chat.
I’m glad I did. Some folks say that a stranger is just a friend you haven’t met yet, and while this woman may have sat down a stranger, we parted as friends. We talked for over 90 minutes about all sorts of things, and I now have an invitation to come see her lambs in the spring.
That’s one of my whys. I’m here on this earth to meet new people and make friends. Ambrose taught me how to approach life with love in the lead, and it’s easy to make friends when I am just myself.
On my new friend’s advice, I headed to Council to check out The Thrifty Store before they closed for the day. I arrived pretty close to closing time, so I just did a quick perusal. I didn’t buy anything this time, but I’ll return. I saw another choir member there volunteering. Then I did a little shopping and headed home.
It was late by the time I started removing the old caulk from my bathtub, but I did get it mostly done this evening. I’m staying up way later than I probably should, but I’m a night owl at heart. Even though I pretend to be an early bird for the sake of backpacking and work. I think if I didn’t have to work, I’d be more nocturnal in the winter. I still prefer getting up early for backpacking so I can hike before the heat of the day gets too intense.
I had some good cries today. And I did end up getting the laundry done. I put my mower away in my shed. The old caulk is mostly gone from the tub. I think I’ll apply the new in the morning rather than stay up even later. I have a family zoom tomorrow in the morning. And maybe I’ll go for a short hike after that if I’m feeling good. I’ll need sleep to feel good.
