Another day where I didn’t want to get out of bed. Though I did wake up just minutes before the alarm thanks to an urgent notice from my bladder. Pulled me out of a very interesting dream. And I couldn’t even get settled again before the alarm went off. I skipped the morning walk and the morning shower.
I had black tea for “breakfast” since today was a limited eating window day. I’m not entirely sure if I’m going to keep up with these, but I’m giving them a try. There are times when it feels easy not to eat and others when I just want some food and it’s not yet time to have food and it is distracting. And by the time it is time to have food, I have sometimes lost the desire to eat at all.
Still pretty bummed today, overall. Trying to distract myself from my emotions. Since I won’t be going to Nampa tomorrow, I decided to go ahead and reserve the early time at the hot springs tomorrow. I figure my regular time will be more crowded with folks visiting for the holiday. The early time may also be busy, but I think it will be a better option for me. We’ll see.
I did more shoulder work for today’s exercises. I think there’s been progress and improvement, but I’m not quite where I want to be, which is at the point where I can raise my arm overhead with weight and not get pinchy twinges. I’m going to keep on working on it. I walked to the mailbox at lunch, but I was too early for the mail so I had to walk back in the evening. Well, I chose to walk back in the evening. A light snow was falling, and there were books in my mailbox, so I decided for a night stroll.
I had planned on baking a pie for my friend’s birthday after work today, but since she’s sick and I won’t be going over tomorrow, I did not bake a pie. I might bake one for my neighbor’s gathering on Thursday, but if I do it will be on Thursday morning or tomorrow evening.
Family zoom was good. We listened to some sad songs together. My dad has been so focused on work that he didn’t realize that there was a holiday this week that had me bummed out. Plus with my plans getting canceled last minute I feel at a loss for what I’m going to do with myself.
I know what I’d be doing if Ambrose were alive, but I can’t do that by myself. I wrote on one of the Facebook widow forums about being bummed and how my husband and I would hike together and someone commented that I should find a new hiking buddy. That’s not going to be easy, and even if I could find someone, they wouldn’t be him. I’d rather hike alone. I will probably do Sturgill again on Friday, with better winter gear. I probably won’t make the peak, but I’ll see what I can do.
It was nice to walk in the light snowfall and the darkness this evening. I hope I can drag myself out of bed tomorrow morning for a good mile walk. I know that I will feel better if I can get that done. Start my morning right.