I got out of bed a little bit better today, but no morning walk. I also didn’t take a shower this morning. It was all I could do to eat breakfast and get to work, so that’s all I did.
Lately I’ve been feeling like I’m never far from tears. I could stay in bed and cry all day. Except I need more tissues. I had to move the box that I kept near the bed to my office, because I used up the one in the office and I haven’t been crying in bed very much.
I walked at lunch to check the mail and found myself wanting to keep on walking. To walk for miles and miles until I grew tired. But there was no time. I had to get back and eat lunch and get back to work.
After work, I did my pasta dinner. Tonight I added some cream cheese to the sauce to make it creamy instead of adding parmesan cheese. Delicious. I should use the last of the opened cream cheese before I leave. And then I went for a walk, even though it was dark.
I walked around my neighbor’s driveway, and he came out to say hello. We had another gorgeous sunset tonight. It feels kind of like the sky is putting on a show to help me. That Ambrose is messing with the weather to try and help me get through this.
I heard some sort of animal noises to the north as I walked. I couldn’t tell what was making the noise. It sounded almost like a coughing laugh.
When I got back from the walk, I went right into exercising. I did a shoulder focused routine, and then some jumps. I showered after that, which felt nice. And now it’s time for bed.
I have set up some overnight oats, and I’m going to try and microwave them in the morning because I prefer hot oats to cold oats. And then I’ll drive out to Hells Canyon and do some hiking out of Eckels Creek. It will be good to get out. I’ll do some grocery shopping when I get back, and think about the story that I’ll write on Sunday. I can’t leave it until the last weekend this month because I’ll be out of town. I have to treat tomorrow like the last weekend.
And I have to get packed this week. I’ll be in Chicago before I know it. Spending time with family. Away from the painfully empty house. Surrounded by the pulse of humanity.
I’ve got a dentist appointment on Tuesday for the issues I’m having with my bite. I thought they would pass, but I had a hard time falling asleep last night because of aching on that side of my jaw. I proactively took some painkillers after my shower so I should be able to get to sleep easier tonight. I’ll have to remember to do that the next couple of nights.
