I had a hard time falling asleep last night. And I didn’t feel like I got very good sleep. Though I did get to sleep in by accident, because I forgot to tell my alarm to turn back on for Tuesday when I turned it off for Monday. So I woke up at 6:40 am, which was still plenty of time to get ready as long as I skipped my walk and morning shower, which I did.
The heel pain has not come back. I put more Vicks Vaporub on my left leg last night, and I’ll do it again tonight. It’s good for muscle soreness. And I’ve been doing some massage on it today as well.
Work was busy, because we had an application deadline and there was work to be done for that. And I had four or five meetings. I feel so popular. I did have trouble focusing today. I think I’m going to be a bit wonky all week because I’m coming up on the end of probation and it’s occupying my thoughts. I’m anxious. I want to be done.
There was supposed to be snow overnight, but it turned out to only have fallen in the mountains. There was some beautiful light this morning though.
I’ll still be working on getting a withheld judgment after Friday, but I will have completed my sentence. And that’s something important. Something to celebrate. And something that I can move past. I want to put the whole incident behind me in some ways. Though I will still write about it.
I got some new ramen in the mail to try. It’s higher fiber and protein than regular ramen. If it tastes good, I might just start buying that instead of Maruchan brand. It’s more expensive, but being healthier probably outweighs that – to a certain extent.
After work, I cooked the week’s dinner. I chopped up an onion, red bell pepper, jalapeno, and a clove of garlic, and sauteed them in olive oil. Then I chopped up some sliced canned water chestnuts and added those in. After letting that cook up a bit, I added some roasted pumpkin with curry that I’d also chopped up into smaller pieces for easier reheating. The last time I cooked with my roasted pumpkin cubes, they tended not to be heated through when reheated. I also cooked a boxed fettucine alfredo. Once that was cooked, I added it and a can of chicken to the veggie pan and stirred everything together. After a taste, I decided to add some no sodium chicken bouillon, and it was ready.
I’m very pleased with my very colorful meal. I thought I’d get four meals out of it, but I put in so many veggies, I ended up with five. Which is the most I can do at once if I’m going to store individual portions. I should probably purchase some more containers for leftovers if I’m going to make large portions. It was quite delicious, and I’m looking forward to eating it for the rest of the week. I’ll need to cook something else up on Sunday, which is a good day for cooking.
I wondered what Ambrose would have thought of my meal. I think he would have liked it, but I probably would never have made it for him. For one, he was the cook in our relationship. And I had been going through some stomach issues which severely limited the amount and variety of vegetables that I could eat. Looking back, I believe it was stress because I knew he was dying on a subconscious level, but at the time, I was trying all kinds of dietary exclusions to keep from being in pain.
He was in my dreams again last night. Trying to wake me up to the knowledge that I was dreaming. I hope to see him again tonight, even if I don’t realize I’m dreaming. Even if I don’t remember that I saw him. I miss him so much. I got a little writing done on my Day 3 of Snowslide Lake trip. I’m writing the day of our meet-iversary, and it’s hard, but feels good.