I slept really well last night. I think it was because I had a heartier meal. It’s possible that I’ve been waking up unable to fall back asleep because I’ve been hungry. That’s happened to me in the past, and especially when backpacking. I took a sleep aid, but those typically only help me fall asleep. I think the food was the stay asleep part.
I decided to sleep in a bit, because I still had a headache. I wasn’t up for a walk. Today was to be a rest day, because it would be the hot springs day. So I took my time in the morning and got a little extra time in bed. I took the migraine medication after eating breakfast. That medication does help the headache go away, but it does not help my focus at work. Still, I did my best.
Right now, I’m doing pretty well. The stress of being under supervision is gone. I’ve confirmed that the tax return I mailed to the state of Idaho was received. I’m still working through grief, but I’m handling it. So, I told my therapist I’m ready to back off to once every other week instead of once a week. She agreed with that, but let me know that if I have a terrible week I can always get in touch and have a session on the week that I normally wouldn’t.
Of course, right after that, I found out that my hot springs plan for the evening was ruined. Someone had a private event booked for the 6 to 8 timeslot. I’ll admit, I cried at that. But then I just made a new plan. Instead of going tonight right around 6, I’d go tomorrow after family zoom, a little after 7. I don’t typically stay more than 40 minutes, so going at 7 would still give me a good soak.
I then considered if I was going to do some mowing this afternoon since I wouldn’t be at the hot springs. While I walked to the mailbox at lunch, I decided that I had still earned a rest day from mowing. Plus, I had other chores to get done. After work, I did a small shopping trip in town to restock on my breakfast sandwiches, and also filled up my gas tank while I was in town. When I got home, I did my Shoulders & Arms exercises, and ten minutes of staff spinning. Then I got dinner ready and worked on the story for Pulphouse. Instead of tortellini tonight, I tried the protein pasta that I’d purchased, topped with parmesan cheese. It was delicious.
After eating, I finished working on the story and got that submitted. Once I finish writing this, I’m going to take a bath. It’s not the hot springs, but I think my muscles will appreciate it. Especially since I plan to run tomorrow morning.
Friday will be 9 months since his death. I don’t know how I’ve kept going. I just know that I will keep going. I have to find out what’s going to happen next. What surprises I will find that he left for me in my memories. What I will be able to do with what I learned from him. What adventures I will find, knowing that he’s with me in my heart.
