Some very interesting dreams last night. I dreamed of a strange hike, through a mountain tunnel. Maybe someday I’ll go explore those tunnels in the mountains of Italy. I think Ambrose was in the dreams, but I don’t remember those parts so well. I woke up at 4:30 and couldn’t get back to sleep. And I actually go up before the alarm because I could tell I wasn’t going to be able to fall back asleep.
I walked to the mailbox wearing a pair of Ambrose’s boxers and a long-sleeve shirt. That was a mistake. I collected half a dozen mosquito bites on my legs. I put hydrocortisone on the bites and then did my exercises. I’m repeating the Shoulders & Arms level 2 week 6 workouts this week. I’m building strength on my pushups, but also, I’m not having to think of anything new before my next trip.
I’m doing okay with getting to work, but I’m not feeling much motivation beyond that. The dishes were building up in the sink today. I did get them into the dishwasher after work. It helped to work on packing for my trip.
I thought I’d have to ask neighbors to check my mail, because I ordered some chocolate things last week, but one of them arrived today, and it looks like the other one should come on Thursday, so I won’t need to do that. My cactuses are not looking great. They’re yellowing instead of greening, and I’m not sure what they need. I added some fresh dirt to the pot, and I’ve been giving them occasional water.
The energy at work is going into not talking about how I’m really feeling to everyone and anyone. Being in meetings is just hard, especially when that little conversation, ‘how are you doing’ question comes up. Not every meeting, but enough of them.
My friendly little bird continues to land on the AC unit so I can see it during work. It always gives me a little smile. Makes me feel like Ambrose is watching me.
I’m taking care of myself. I’m eating and walking and getting out of the house and I got all the dishes into the dishwasher. I can get through this. I’m going to spend time with friends on Saturday and then I’ll be heading out to the woods again. Then up to Big Creek. I won’t be posting next week while I’m out. I’ve requested dinner reservations at the Big Creek Lodge on the 25th and the 26th. It will be good to spend time with the vibrations of Big Creek.
