I woke up before the alarm this morning and actually managed to get out of bed and go for a walk. I did the mile down and up the hill. The neighbor corgi was out and joined me. I really don’t know how to stop him. He followed me all the way home and then I gave him some pets and I might have had a bit of a cry while holding him.
Then I sprayed the wasp nest that I’d found in a skull on my property. I don’t want nests anywhere near my house. And I might want to make art with the skull.
The workday was long today. A lot of meetings, even with one being canceled. I got my exercises done during lunch. I’ve been feeling kind of sick to my stomach all day, and I’ve been having trouble getting myself to eat. Maybe I had something that didn’t agree with me over the weekend. Or my body is just telling me that I should be out in the woods.
When I left the house to go feed my friend’s dog, I caught a deer walking along my driveway. It was the strangest thing to step outside and hear footsteps. I expected a person, but it was a stag.
I was going to mow today, but the sick tummy and the heat changed my mind. I also didn’t get to cooking any dinner. I did cut and freeze the plums that hadn’t gone bad yet. Lately, those fruit stands have been doing me dirty, selling a lot of poor quality fruit and not cheaply.
I finished watching Maniac on Netflix. It brought on more tears than I expected. Though I’ve also just been very emotional today. That seems to be the new normal as I close in on two years. I was just thinking today that soon it will be 23 months and then 24 before I know it. It’s hard. It doesn’t make sense that he’s been gone almost two years. And the world just keeps turning and I miss him.
