I have finally got back to walking in the morning. Well, I walked this morning. I’ll need to do it again, and again, to really say that I’m back at it. But I feel so much better today than I have the last few days. I’m motivated to continue.
I didn’t fall asleep as easily as I’d prefer, but my sleep was overall decent. I encountered a single car on my walk, which is more than I usually do. I miss seeing the moon in the sky with this inversion. And the sun, of course.
There were a lot of meetings at work today, and they all went well. I was on time for all of them. In one, I had a chance to connect with a co-worker who is also going through some hard stuff in their life. I was glad to listen, and offer virtual hugs.
In the morning, I made a peanut butter and jelly sandwich and cut up an apple so I could eat lunch at my desk at noon. I worked through my normal lunch hour and pushed my lunch hour to 1 pm so I could attend a Move U workshop. I thought that I’d put a question in, but I had it on the wrong tab, so he didn’t get to my question. But the workshop was good. We ended up spending well over 15 minutes working on hips, and I can still feel the work that my hip flexors and glutes did. I’ll be doing the same thing next Wednesday, and this time I’ve got my question in the right place.
I ate dinner right after work, not dawdling so I’d have time to go for a quick walk before I went to the hot springs. The walk was chilly, but I wanted to check the mail since I hadn’t been able to do that during my lunch hour because of the workshop.
Last January when I started taking myself on walks, it was because I needed to push myself out of bed or I’d stay there. I was hoping to get started on that again when I got back from Chicago, but then I was sick. I’ve still got a bit of residual coughing, but I’m physically good to walk again, even in the cold and with the low air quality from the inversion. And it’s a good thing, because my mind and my soul really need my body to move.
When I got home from the hot springs, I spied some deer in my yard. I angled the car to try and illuminate them, but they were pretty well hidden in the darkness. I’ve been feeling calm and content after my soak. I read, and exchanged hellos and goodbyes with another regular, as well as chatting with the woman who works there. A combination of a bit of socializing and some solitary soaking.
I wanted to be coming home to Ambrose. Or to have come home from the hot springs with him. But I could still be calm and content with the way my life is now. The terrible thing has already happened. And I just keep walking forward through time. It’s all I can do.
