I lingered in bed a bit, but even though I didn’t get up until about 7:15, I still got myself ready for work on time. The Jimmy Dean’s breakfast sandwiches make for a very easy pick for breakfast. I’m really appreciating them, even though they aren’t the healthiest option.

This morning, I started to do my meditation, but at some point I kind of blanked on it. There’s a part where I’m supposed to hug myself, and I completely missed the instructions for that part. I was thinking of Ambrose, and it’s like my mind just had a skip.

Work went well. I got stuff done, and had good connections with co-workers. It’s still kind of slow, but things are going to start ramping up for me pretty quickly. I’ve got over 100 applications to review for the open position and it hasn’t closed yet.

I walked in the slush and rain to check my mail. There’s a piece I got that was misdelivered and I’ve been meaning to bring it back down and I keep forgetting. Maybe I’ll get it down tomorrow.

After work, I did my exercises. I’ve restarted Hips & Glutes level 2 and am now through day 2 of week 1. The exercises are hard and I’m feeling them in my hamstrings. I already did day 1 and day 2 before leaving for Chicago, so tomorrow will be a new workout for me.

I cooked up another batch of pasta sauce like my brother showed me how to do back in October. I don’t know if I cooked it exactly like he showed me, but it tastes good. I’m happy to have used another batch of ground beef. Back when we bought our last batch of beef from B n B up the road, I joked that I would run out of food in two months if Ambrose were to die. That’s not been the case, simply because I’m not cooking like he did. I still have a freezer full of meat and fish. I really ought to cook some fish next. If they’re frozen too long, they don’t taste good when they defrost. Ambrose was always careful not to let the fish sit too long in the freezer.

I did add one thing that we didn’t have back in October: Peruvian yellow pepper sauce. My brother gave me the jar when I was in Chicago, and I’m really glad I added it. I didn’t make it too spicy, but two spoonfuls gave it a nice kick.

Cooking also helped me do dishes, so I cleared out my sink while I was waiting for things to heat. I’ve got a few more dishes to do that I might leave for the morning. I’m feeling motivated to put things away and clean things up, but I don’t know if that will last through to tomorrow. I don’t have any plans for tomorrow other than a family zoom in the afternoon. If the weather’s not bad, maybe I’ll take the trike out or go for a long walk.

I’m trying to be patient with myself. I don’t know what I’m doing, but I’ll figure it out. I have to believe that I can figure things out.

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