I felt like I got good sleep last night, but I ended up feeling really tired today overall. I’ve also been feeling a little lightheaded and I don’t know where that’s coming from either. I did a bit more snacking today than usual to try and see if that would help. I’m not sure if it did.
As planned, I got exercises done in the morning right after my walk. And I also moved my lunch hour around so I could go to the Move U Office Hours live, and I’m glad I did that. I really need to focus on thigh turnout. Practicing that today really got my muscles engaged.
Today was a bit easier than yesterday. I still have some sadness floating around, but I didn’t feel it quite as much. I did do some crying on the way to the hot springs listening to “Some Things Last a Long Time” by Built to Spill. I’ve been meaning to listen to that for a few days now. It’s going on my list of songs to cry to, along with Freelance Whales “Generator 2nd Floor”, The Flaming Lips “Do You Realize?” and Carly Simon “Life Is Eternal..” I feel like I need one more before I create a playlist, but I haven’t figured out another one guaranteed to make me cry every time yet.
After dinner, I walked to check the mail since I had skipped that during the lunch hour. I got to say hi to my neighbor and his dog, and I experimented with focusing on turning my thighs out a bit while walking, which felt really good. Then I went to the hot springs. The hot tub plus the sunshine that suddenly showed up at the end of the day was a bit too hot for me, so I ended up spending more time down in the big pool on one of the benches, reaching.
When I got home, I finally transcribed some song lyrics that I wrote back in December while I hiked out of Hells Canyon. I want to rerecord that song, because I decided to change the lyrics a bit. Smooth it out. It’s a grief song.
As the sun set, the wind really started picking up this evening. It just tried to blow my door open, so I’ve got the house bolted for the night. I can hear it howling out there and see my tree branches shaking and swaying.
I did look at the lilacs at the hot springs, and I now know what the flower buds look like as they start to come out. I have definitely not seen flower buds on my lilac yet, but I know what to look for. The hot springs flowers tend to pop a bit before mine do up on the hill, so there’s still a little hope that I might get some blossoms this year.
