I did remember a bit of my dreams from last night. And I slept for a long time without getting up, almost the whole night. I find it a lot easier to get up out of bed when I wake up before the alarm. Not that it’s always easy, but being pulled from sleep by the alarm makes me want to burrow into the covers.
I got my walk done, and then shoulder exercises. Next shower, then breakfast, and then work. My routine is reestablishing after the business trip and then the excitement of last week’s laser procedure and the shock of the IRS fine. This week feels calmer. I think I had a good amount of anxiety in the days leading up to the eye lasering that I didn’t really acknowledge until the morning of.
At lunch, I did the ankle exercises. I’m keeping up so far with doing two programs concurrently. They’re taking 30 to 50 minutes to complete, each, starting with deep tissue work and ending with stretches, with varying exercises in between. I’m almost done with week two of the ankle one, and I think that the muscles that were so tender in my left leg when my foot seized up a few weeks back are relaxing a bit.
After work was over, I made dinner for tonight and the next four nights. I went with the now classic veggies, cheesy noodles, and protein. Tonight’s protein was beef, the cheesy noodles were parmesan, and the veggies included red bell pepper, onion, jalapeno pepper, water chestnuts, and curry roasted pumpkin. I’m down to one more batch of pumpkin in my freezer after this. The mishmash dinner was delicious and I’m looking forward to eating it this week.
I started the dishwasher and handwashed what I couldn’t fit before I ate dinner. And I went for a walk after dinner. Other than that, I’ve been trying to relax and let myself feel sad. I’ve been having an emotional day today. I miss Ambrose really hard, and I’ve been crying quite a bit. I started watching Survivor 50 this morning and it definitely got me crying because we had watched most of those players seasons together. Before we lived together, Ambrose and I would watch Survivor and text back and forth during the commercials with our opinions on what was going on and what would happen next. That was Survivor: Gabon, the first one I watched. I only started watching Survivor because it was one of Ambrose’s shows to watch.
I want to watch this latest season, and talk to him about it even if he isn’t answering back. But it’s hard for me to do it. Which is why I’ve only just started the first episode when it’s been available for weeks now.
