I woke up feeling better overall. I cried a lot last night. Cried a lot today. Which made my head feel a bit full, but I think that’s from all the crying. Grief’s just hitting harder these days. I guess that’s a thing.
I keep thinking about how Ambrose would be with me or waiting for me when I went and did community things. Parties at CrossFit or the Open workouts when we lived in Boise. Work events. I’m glad we managed to make it to the Powwow that’s hosted at Boise State together. Tonight after we were done eating, I went to the bathroom and I wanted to text him and let him know how the evening was going.
My pie was about 3/4 eaten, and I’d had a bit of it. So I’m glad I also brought a package of KitKats. They were much more popular. I think adding too much corn syrup made for a hard crystal shell on the pie. It was difficult to cut, and I probably should have put down some nonstick spray before I put the crust in. Lessons learned!
I enjoyed the potluck food. I got to try funeral potatoes, which I’d heard of but not had before that I can recall. They were yummy. Someone also brought panzit, which excited me because that’s a Filipino food that Ambrose really liked. He would talk about getting that in LA when he lived there.
I made sure to get my exercises done during the lunch hour since I wouldn’t have any time after work for them, and I certainly wouldn’t want to do them after rehearsal. I barely want to write this, I’m so tired.
It snowed last night. There was a light coating of snow, maybe an inch, when I woke up. But it melted through the day, and it rained, turning the ground into slushy mud. I did get to watch a flock of partridges migrate around my house. They were particularly intrigued by the straw covering my lilac bush.
The potluck and rehearsal were good. It was good to see everyone and good to sing and play the flute. The speaker was a bit loud in my left ear, and the music was a bit hard to read in the available light, especially with my blurry right eye, but these are all obstacles that can be overcome. I had a lot of fun, and Sunday is going to be fun.
I scheduled an oil change for tomorrow, and I am so confused by the confirmation email that I just received. I thought my appointment was for 8 at Stateline Auto Ranch, but I received a confirmation email for an appointment at 9 from Ontario Auto Ranch, which I haven’t been to before. My phone app also thinks the appointment is at 8. I’m pretty sure they don’t open until 8 so I’m going to have to either show up at 8 and figure out if I’m early or on time or show up at 9 and hope that’s the right time. Ugh!
I’m too tired to try and figure this out now. I’ll decide what to do in the morning. Maybe phone someone for advice. It will be late enough to call my dad in Chicago before I’d need to leave to get there by 8…
