I had trouble falling back asleep this morning after getting up to use the bathroom. I’m not sure what time it was because I’ve turned off my projection. I just know it felt like I couldn’t fall back asleep. And when the alarm finally did ring, I didn’t really want to get out of bed. I knew that I needed to get up and get moving and do all the things before I had to leave this afternoon. But I couldn’t get myself to move.
I finally got out of bed after 6:30. And I packed for tonight and for my trip to Chicago. Well enough, I hope. If I’m short on anything, I can always go shopping. I do want to stop by REI in Chicago anyway.
I let myself yell and scream and bawl this morning. I think holding that in was keeping me from getting my packing done. Things got a little easier once I had myself some really serious cry time.
Work went by quickly. I had to move my exercise release time because yesterday I had an overlapping meeting, so I exercised at 12:30, but chose not to take a walk to check the mail because it was windy and spitting rain.
I ate lunch, turned down my thermostat, put my joy water heater on vacation mode, washed the dishes is used at lunch, and got my bags into the car. I left the house at 2:20 thinking I had plenty of time to get to Nampa, but when I set up directions on Google maps, it told me I would take nearly 2 hours to get there.
That made what should have been an easy drive a stressful one. Especially because the directions kept telling me to avoid the highway which is the fastest route. Yeah, apparently I had selected “avoid highways” while messing around on my computer, not realizing that setting would carry over into everything.
I made it to my appointment on time. And then waited a long time because they are always super busy. The good news is I’m healing well. The bad news is it’s still a work in progress, so I’ll be going back in three months, and maybe then he’ll let me get new glasses. Also, my next appointment is at the Boise office because he wants to laser my other eye to shore up a weak spot before it also detaches. I guess I’m just prone to retinal detachments for some reason. The laser procedure is much less intense than the other surgery so I’ll get it done.
Then I drove to my friend’s house and had a nice evening watching movies. I watched This Is Spinal Tap for the first time, and The Green Knight, also for the first time though that movie is much more recent. Enjoyed both, as well as hanging out and talking with my friend.
I thought the snow in Cambridge would melt overnight in the forecasted rain, but it was still hanging in there when I left.
Tomorrow, I’m having breakfast with another friend and then embarking on a long day of travel. Leaving Boise is easier for me than coming back, so it shouldn’t be too dramatic. But I’m still in grief, and it swells without warning.
