Overall, I’m happy with where I’m at.
I expected not to lose as much weight over the backpacking season, and possibly even gain some. Instead, I did keep losing, to an extent. I kept dipping into the 130’s, even if I’d had a bump up to the 140’s over a trip. I just needed to reassert my normal routines and in about a week, I’d be back under 140.
Now, I just need to keep reminding myself of that, because my body is being all weird after the Chicago trip. I half expected to gain on that trip, because of the break in routine and unfamiliar foods. What happened was weirder. The day after we got back, Sunday, I weighed in at 136.6 pounds. Amazing! The next day, 140.6 – what?
I’ve also been very tired so it’s hard to get back onto my routines. I ended up both going to CrossFit and running yesterday, and that led to me not going to CrossFit this morning, because I woke up so sore and tired. But that’s what it’s like for me. I can go to CrossFit every day, but it hurts until I get back into the routine of it.
I’ll still ride my bike to work today for exercise, and probably stop by the pull up bars that can be on my way. I am still getting pullups done at this weight, so that’s pretty awesome. I’m not just losing weight, I’m building some muscle. And I carry my weight a lot differently than I used to.
I am very pleased that I wore a well-fitted size 4 dress to my dad’s wedding. I feel like I looked amazing in that dress, and I couldn’t have fit in it if I were bigger. But it’s not about being big or small right now. I want to be strong and fit more than I want to be small.